thoughts !

For someone who hardly expresses opinions in public...not for d fear of being ridiculed mind u!...but for the mere fact of being 'not-understood at all'...this is quite a huge step..a public portal like blogspot. but then...curosity always takes the better of me.

i think i whine a LOT...for a girl of only 22yrs of age..n its not just about...how hot it is these days...or how bad the roads are...or how im surrounded by bitches of the first order...or hw the pvr's r looting every penny of my pocket money...or y the only source of entertainment left to us are the grotesque malls piling out of nowhere..and the other usual stuff...but astonishingly about what the hell's happening to the world..!!!!

Not in the more obvious sense ofcource...for if u look at the surface...it will appear as if its 'progress'...a progress from man-made to the machine-made...from hunting in obscure places to being provided for at ur door-step..from watching to building...
....but at what cost...machine-made at the cost of originality, service at the cost of skill and building at the cost of creativity. progress...still ??

let me explain myself...(the ordeal of explaining...sigh...)
a man who creates..does so ONLY for his own pleasure of creating it and for the pleasure of seeing it being used for a purpose.but when it is reproduced..without thought..only for its value..which is determined not by the object itself but only by the thought behind it..all meaning of it is lost..then those others can nevr create..nevr tackle a new problem and never find a new solution..they stagnate...but for the one who creates..who thinks...
...the service providers...they provide..service of a kind..where the buck is passed from one executive to the other..where they hide under one law or the other..untill..u jus give up and decide that even u could have handled it much better. they have no skill...no mind to think..only a wistful smile and an apology which they dnt acknowledge..(its never in their hands u see..never their fault!!) but for the one who has skill..who can see..n tell..n repair or solve or make note of it...
...and the creator...who made the first's in the world..the first bridge..the first car..the first railroad..the first sckyscaper..!! he did not emulate...not from the past..not from 'abroad'..never borrowed from anyone but only from his own imagination..and drawing from his own spirit..the power to create..to be the first...

i dont know what it is that connects these two thought...the world as it is nw..and these other thoughts..but i knw for sure..that one answers the other. its as if they are both interlinked at some level...in what form and in what root cause...is still a mystery...and something tells me...the answer will nt only solve this..but a lot of the other mysteries that are deluded from me..

gawd...i didnt intend to write all of that..not in my first blog atleast...